Random Ruminations from the Rabbit Hole

  1. Yes, the Zadge knows she has gone radio silent on this little blog of late.  Cut her a break – she was down in the rabbit hole.  The rabbit hole of “It’s Effing January and I Effing Hate Winter and I’m Depressed and I’ve Got Personal Drama That I Can’t Put on the Damn Blog and I’m Crying A Lot and It’s Effing Cold and Dark and I’m Depressed and Have I Mentioned I’m Depressed.”
  2. And can she also say that historically, January is the Rabbit Hole of yucky things like breaking up with not one, not two, but THREE boyfriends.  And two years ago tomorrow she had to put down her sweet-faced Shone.  So the Zadge and January have some effing history between them.
  3. Oh, and welcome to the weather in the Rabbit Hole:Cold
  4. Which prompted Tulip to channel her best Liz Taylor and become the Cat on a Hot Tin Radiator:CatOnHotTinRadiator
  5. When the Zadge goes down the Rabbit Hole, she shuts down her communications with her closest peeps. Which would explain why the Sista was calling and leaving messages like, “Dawg, I know you are down in the ‘hole, but get up and call your damn Sista!” and her BFF was texting her, “Uh, hello? Will we ever communicate?”
  6. But the good news is the ZADGE HAS CLIMBED OUT OF THE HOLE! She’s resolved her personal drama and it’s in the 60′s in Denver this week and sunny and the Zadge has no more boyfriends to break up with and no dogs fighting cancer and the ZADGE IS BACK!
  7. Of course, even in the Rabbit Hole, some things just can’t be stopped:
    Peanut Butter and Harry

    PEANUT BUTTER AND HARRY

    Is it wrong to chew Mom's purchase from drugstore?

    WIZE IT WRONG TO CHU THINGS MOM JUST BOUGHT?

  8. During her time in the hole, the Zadge managed to finish this book:Night-Circus-UK-cover And she is decidedly “Meh” about it. She knows the reviews are great for this book but it just didn’t grab her.
  9. She also managed to obsess for hours over what new wallet to buy.  The Zadge’s current wallet is a beautiful leather baby blue wallet a friend bought her in Florence, Italy for her 40th birthday some eons ago.  Now almost a decade old, it is showing it’s age, as is the Zadge.  So she thought she’d spring for a new one.  A wallet, not a face. She’s narrowed it down to this one from Coach:Coachand this one from Kate Spade:SpadeCan you tell our girl likes blue and green pastels? Have you seen her house? But these are “wristlets” — apparently the new term in wallets — and the Zadge is worried they both might be too big.  Wristlet veterans, thoughts?
  10. Thanks to MLK, the Zadge had the day off today.  And as she sweated through her 45-minute workout on the elliptical, she watched on television as President Obama was sworn in for his second term.   Since she moved from D.C. almost 5 years ago, she has never missed the city, what with its traffic, and politics, and crappy weather, and generally stressed out population.  But today, amid the pagentry, and the patriotism, and the Beyonce-ism, the Zadge wished she could have been there as her heart filled with pride at being an American.  Despite the pain, awful pain, of that horrible presidential campaign, and all the bullshit politics, our country is still the best there is.  Oh shit, the clean, fresh air up here above the Rabbit Hole apparently has gone to our girl’s head, making her all sappy!  Or else it’s just the general Rocky Mountain High that is, these days, Colorado.
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20 Responses to Random Ruminations from the Rabbit Hole

  1. Moomskers says:

    Sweet, sweet Shone…always with you…so much love…so many beautiful memories; far outweighs the negatives…

  2. Oh i feel you pain in Janurary – it has to be the longest, shittiest, and most pointless month. Nothing good about it, except that it means spring is about 3 months closer! Maybe 2!

  3. Flip says:

    Oh Zadge, big hugs and support during the dark days of the year. If you need to get out for an hour (or several) of happiness, I’m your woman. Also, I vote for the adorable Robin’s egg blue wallet and I stopped reading Night Circus too in spite of the many positive reviews.

  4. Does your Rabbit Hole have carpet? Mine doesn’t. Congratulations on your reemergence. The world is a sad, stinky place without The Zadge.

  5. Kirby says:

    I bought a Coach Madison accordion wallet about a year ago – LOVE IT. It looks about same size as your wristlet, while the wallet is large I have room for stuff in wallet that use to float around purse such as business cards, receipts, those punch cards restaurants gives you, etc. so the trade off of wallet taking more space in purse is totally worth it. And sometimes I just grab the wallet and go, it’s cute too.

  6. Deb~in~Denver says:

    Glad you are climbing out of the hole. It has been a cold, gray winter. So nice to see the sun! I think those damn Broncos added to everyone’s depression! I love the Coach wallet, such a pretty color. Thinking of you and your Shone today. It’s okay to look at his pictures and shed some tears but remember how much joy he brought into your life. I’m sure he knew how lucky he was to have you for his mom! Hugs…

  7. B says:

    Our dogs have ahold of our hearts more than it seems could be possible.
    When they leave us , it leaves a hole.

  8. Welcome to the January doldrums club! I am having the SAME problem you are. I will say, robin’s egg blue is sure to cheer a soul up. I took my last purse to the Coach store and tried a wallet on for size with my bag. Although I know you probably want to order on line like I do, right? xo to the Shone star up in the sky…

  9. Jeanie says:

    Would it be wrong to say I’m glad I’m not alone in having a suck-y month? Thinking of you and Shone today. *Hugs*

  10. Sadie says:

    Hugs to you today as you remember all of the joyful times you and Shone shared.

  11. Carole says:

    Welcome back!

  12. Amy says:

    Love the color on both of these but that’s too much wallet for me. I gave myself the legacy leather soft wallet in fuchsia for Christmas (along w/the gray Candace w/fuchsia trim) & I love it. It’s big enough to carry what I need in a wallet & thin enough to fit in a clutch if I’m too lazy to switch to my little card case before going out.

    Sorry you got the blues…glad you’re pulling through. I have a dear friend in Denver & the weather was pushing her over the edge last week.

  13. Lisa says:

    Welcome back from the rabbit-y hole. You were missed!

    I just switched to a wristlet and I gotta say I love it! More times than not I grab just my wallet and leave my purse in the car. The blue is my fav but they’re both pretty!

  14. Penne says:

    Boys are dumb. January is dumb. I have ordered you up some blue skies and warm weather. I bet by Saturday you will see little crocuses (croci?) sticking their widdle biddy blades up through the Denver dirt saying, “Hiya Zadgey! It’s spring!”

    As for wristlets – I only like ‘em if they also have a long strap so I don’t have to have a giant purse or a bunch of stuff to juggle. They’re too big to actually hang off your wrist.

  15. Hulk So how YOU doin'... says:

    Man…and I thought *I* needed to get laid…

    ;-)

  16. B says:

    January is a good month for sleep, napping and movies! I do all my catching up on TV shows that I can’t stay awake for (Downton Abbey) – and what not – before you know it Winter subsides and we’re in the SPRING of things! :)

    I like the blue color wallet – but I’m one that doesn’t like wrist wallets either – but love the blue! It’s SO you! (but the green one is too!)

  17. Oh, Zadge. I barely know you. But I kind of like to think I do.
    I can tell on your last comment on my blog that you get it. I was in my rabbit hole. Which Piper calls “freaking her shit”. Anyhoo. I have found a good psychiatrist who seems to be helping a little. I’m still trying to decide if he’s worth the very expensive hourly fee. The jury is out.
    But I am feeling better. More centered. More happy and less internally frantic. And yes, that includes medicine – which I am totally fine with.
    I don’t know…this inversion here in Salt Lake is so smothering. So dreadful. And up high in the mountains it’s a totally different landscape. Sunny, warm.
    But I’ve found that an hour a day BY MYSELF and making stupid rap videos has helped me get through this mess. Thank god. I wish I were there in Denver to have a beer with you and look at funny pictures of celebrities online.
    xoxo

  18. We all miss the Shone, doll. Those two years seems like only yesterday.

  19. Karaoke Slut says:

    Like those Baltimore cops from “the Wire” like to say, “Sssshhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiitttt.” I’ve been in my chicken with my head cutoff mode, which is the anxiety version of my work rabbit hole, as I am getting ready for one of those special projects we sometimes have. Glad you are re-emerging as I need my Zadgie back to help me figure out those pesky rules I sometimes don’t understand. P.S. I don’t have any prospects either. It has been a long 2 years; does this make me a virgin again?

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